The · Insignificant · One

what a good way to start LJing again.

just got back from Port Dickson, and yeah, why is it unforggetable coz its a mistake, it sucked, doing nothing but eating and sleeping, going to the beach at night and sing along to love songs ( i dont sing, they did ) and now they are going to gentings on the 1st of may. I aint going.. and i find that hanging out with my cosplay buddies is like X 10294020270570358024.01  better =)

i am sure, most of you know this saying, an empty vessle makes the most noise, which decribes my older brother very much, i am not bad mouthing him but its just the way he is.  The whole today, i kept my patience level as high as i could, and i manage to do so. He changed his rims of "his" Myvi, and apparently called me for a stupid reason, if i want to take the old rims back.

So i told him, that i will think about it and have a second opinion, from my dad, so, he said, let him do what ever he wants to do (which i will explain later) then i called my brother that i am refusing the offer and told him to trade in with his "new" set of rims, propably he is too deaf to hear my last say, so he brought back the wheels without its tyres, what a dumb ass, how can i use them if they have no tyres fitted and since i have changed to a decent set of tyres and i dont see a point in changing my rims.

i got back home earlier and just to find out these rims is stacked up in the middle of my room and with my helmet on top of it, its a sign of disrespect, i shifted the wheels outside, where there is some proper space to put it, he heard the clutters and started his bitching, that dad is going to find out about it. I feel like throtling the life out of him, but its no use because he's just plain stupid.

First of all dumbass, you have changed the rims on the car and its obviously dad will know (he is not stupid, duh) . Secondly, dad doesnt give a flying rat asses about you anymore. Thirdly, i am your younger brother and you better treat him with respect like other members of the family, as i have for all of my life with your nonsense and stupidity and fourthly, you are still immature. grow up...

at his age, when something bad happens, he'll just have to swollow his pride, hard

now i cant sleep again due to another self eye opener, well basically this wont be emo post or what so ever.

now i have decided on making my own website, yes my very own, its basically a practice of my HTML and Flash knowledge and use them as far as i can go. its gonna be more or less of a portfolio website, a place where i can stash my artworks and propably my cosplay photos. i just got back from jogging, and i was thinking of a few names for the site, the name i have thought of so far is..

Makan Kertas
Di Makan Kertas
Pemotong Kertas
PaperFed
The Yellow Box

any suggestions will be highly apreciated. =D

*opens flash and starts building*

today, i have not been shutting my eyes for hours besides blinking, today Keiichi has left to the city of the New York yankess, bright sign boards and yellow cabs, and yes its New York. dusty could not make it due to his mom's orders and i went there alone. on the way,  theres was an accident (which i did not notice till i was on the way home) which pretty much been covered by a tanker, so the crash scene is not visible.

Drivers are being irritating today, due to something that they overlook.

 now i shall nap. XD

*takes a deep breath and exhales slowly*

 i have been reflecting on what people have been trying to tell me for the past years and months, which is something to tell me to keep calmed and relaxed, just as simple as that and yet i cant seem to desipher what have they been telling me, from notes to comments to advices.

they were right. very right.

been thinking too much, mind gets messed up, loose patients fast, get angry fast and mental strain for weeks to months.

i was watching AXN, WRC was on and its on German WRC championships, one of the reporters asked a former raly driver Armin Schwarz, and he was giving a comment on the current world rally champion, Sebastian Loeb, i did not quite noticed it what he actually said, what makes Sebastian Loeb the world champion, besides the backing and good relations to the team, but what make all these happen is his cool and calm personality and does not put too much pressure on himself.

i knew that these things makes a champion, someone who has patients not to give up things very much, which is obvious. from all the advice and comments from people i meet and knew, these are signs.

Come to think of it aswell, i'm not the king of the universe, i always think i'm right, but i am just down right wrong, also concidering i am not the sharpest knife in the drawer. I am pretty much like everyone else and definately i am way over my head at the moment, i should listen to others, think before what i say, guess i should just put my feet back on the ground.

I have worked my self too much in my college life, its actually fun to think about it, its not like i have to make tough decisions and to simply do stuff for the sake of my lecturers.

Its for my own sake, its for my self and my future

Tolerate others, listen to them, care for them.

The stongest sign is that people (which i have been told) are afraid of me when ever they see me or talk to me and they dont want to get closer to me or to know me better. which is an obvious sign. i guess its from my past bad experiences from people.i have been too serious over simple ridiculous matters.

also explains my inconsistency to do things, lack of patients and getting my underwear in a twist. pushing my pointless points thru possible solutions.

its true what they say, indeed, very true. thank you.

i just gone back from a gym and most of the time people come home everyday from the gym feeling good and getting fitter everyday, as for me ITS APPAULING!, here's my reasons why, first of all, you are stuck in a bulding, trveling without moving, and air conditioner blowing into your faces, if i work out outside, i have 20 billion miles of head space, the sun, the clouds the birds and the bees, diffrent oxygen density and i have full control of my self when ever i jog what ever. where is that sense of danger when you work out indoors that pushes you further?!

what actually spatrked my anger is a sales person which i will not metion his/her name, the person greeted me and seated me at some table and chairs, i was cool then, so i answered some questiones, and fill up some forms. the person asked me what i need to concerntrate when i am working out, so i said.

" stamina and loose weight"

so the person asked

"okay, whats the reason?"

i said, that i need to loose weight and gain my stamina for go-karting. OOoo the person said, intresting, then  the person asked  if  i come for future sessions when my class starts, so i was being honest and civil and the person asked me this " how can you keep loose weight and stamina for your go kart when you cannot make it" i started feeling uncomfortable, trying my best to answer that question, i felt very cornered, helpless, the person asked again, i'm starting to boil....primal instincts kicking in, then i tried to keep my self together and i said, when my semester starts, i dont think i have the time to focus on this particular thing, because i have plenty of work and i dont think i can cope, the person asked me the most stuidest question " how are you going to loose weight and stamina?" stupid questions get stupid answers, I STARVE LA

and the person asked the same stupid question for 3 FUCKING times....FUCK MAN, HEY BITCH ARE YOU DUMB AS A FUCKING BRICK?! TAK RETI BAHASA KE BALIK RUMAH MASAK TAHI TENUK!!, then this stupid gaijin immigrant stare cock GO BACK TO YOUR FUCKING ASSHOLE COUNTRY BITCH

I AM SO PISSSED

then the person brought us around the place and show some nonsense AND IT DOES NOT CHANGE THE FUCKIGN WORLD A LITTLE MORE


FUCKING HELL MA PUKI CHIBAI KANNN NI NEH SOONIE YODA EWOK NIAMA CHOW HAI CHINKO INTO MANKO KUNJILEK PUNDEK ASSHOLE MOTHERFUKCER

I HAVE TO DRIVE TO SUNWAY EVERYDAY WITH THE FUCKING JAM FOR FUCKING 30 MINS AND DRIVE HOME AND DO YOU THINK I HAVE THE FUCKING TIME TO LOOSE WEIGHT AND GAIN STAMINA EVERY FUCKING DAY?!

TO FUCKING UNSERSTAND YOU BITCH IS THAT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND ME, I FELT CORNERED AND UNCOMFORTABLE AND INSECURE WITH YOUR GODAMN QUESTIONS, HAVE A GOOD FUCKING DAY

i was jogging back home after that, god that felf so much better =D

presentation went well today, and thats the end of my project, and still...there is not time for fun and games yet, theres metal to burn tyres to screech, THE NEXT MONSTER GARAGE CHALLENGE.....IS......JUST....AROUND....THE.....BEND!!

......

damn i miss monster garage XD

I kinda relate monster garage with some of my hobbies, coz i love to build stuff with my hands. fun aswell..

earlier i was talking with a hindu priest friend of mine, we were chatting chillin and shit, then he came up with this, he asked me what number i am (based on the day i was born) so i told him its 7, i asked why

HOLY SHIT

he read me like a catalogue,from what music i listen to the kind enviroment i love the most to what my character really is...everythings spot on...freaks the shit out of me, he told me that i also should  take care things which i love to do.....very true indeed and this comes to cosplaying.

i dont think of it too seriously, coz i see it as a guide. Cosplaying wise, what he told me earlier opened my eyes, i should reduce the amount of costumes that i am doing this year, its true, my budget exceeded what i planned earlier this year, if i make the 2k-tan costume, that counts as 6 costumes this year alone!

so. i guess i pretty much made my decision to cut 2k-tan off...this year...and to add the fact that i still need to collect my other 2 costumes @_@.... guess i should concerntrate on other things matter most to me, i just havethe urge to modding my car up....get some rims and tyres and stuff.

so i guess, enough is enough..cant have everything in the world.

as for the modding, i need bigger rims and tyres, a steering bosskit (detachable steering wheel XD) and a whole new custom made exaust system..which i guess will not happen anytime soon, so far i have done on the audio system, you dont need such big assed sets for a small car... its pointless.

i'll just see what comes and i'll see what i can do...as for 2k-tan, seeya next year.

for the past 3 week...i have been pulling elephants out of my ass....finaly ITS DONE!!!!!

my final project is done in time and following by schedule, isnt it usefull to bring a notepad around XD...everything has been following to plan....but not for my cosplay XD now its just adding those small bits and alittle bit more tweaking here and there..... not so much of a problem...now i can just do my figures with no worries and stuff.

but i am just glad that its done in time. =D

i got my second wisdom tooth removed today, and as usual it did not stop bleeding for 2 hours, the dentist gave me the same crappy gauss like the last time i was given...i thought waking up on a bloddy bed again...and the worst part is, mom is buying KFC for dinner. KFC!!! my love for chicken knows no boundaries!

mom got home, place the box of 10 pieces on the dining table and did the slow motion shit, took my gauss out from the wound, threw it into the dustbin, grab a plate, took 2 pieces, sat infront of the TV and sink my teeth onto the meat, i could not care anymore about the wound and eat will all my hearts content!

when i am done, it stopped bleeding O_O, no food stuck in the wound, its just stop! the miracles of eating chicken <3

but apparently, me and what ever stuff that covers my wounds wont go along together very well.. i belive the fact of my body is capable of healing it self without any form of support......maybe something more serious will require me to use those stuff XD

okay, as the topic says, its a post about the new commer to the house hold, a black Perodua Myvi,it came as to be my "brother's" new car, so as the car arrived to the porch of my house, (the car hasnt reached its mandatory first service) it has been driven like its been stolen with 100 million dollars in the back seat. So when the time the car has met its owner, it has met its maker.

So i shall make a farewell speech for the black Myvi.

*clears throat*

Black Myvi, its good knowing you, even though we met just a few minuites,
and i know you will be the sweetest thing to drive around confortably. I hope
your journey from the assembly plant to the dealership would be a fun and
a meaningful one. So may your soul rest in peace.

stupid replacement friday classes is on monday, and need to finish assignments for that monday, gaydedness... =___= and yes i feel really annoyed, cant enjoy my weekends in peace....bastards..

Oakay i have just returned from the imigrations with my passport...why....here it goes, i got my documents and i have no money, and i am sure most of you all know that you have to pay it on the spot, so i tested this theory that "If i have my documents and all, but i am short of cash i can pay it as soon as i pick it up" well, assumptions are the mother of all fuck ups.

so, i got my number, i waited for my turn, once my number is called i went over to the counter, passed all the required photostated copies, and these is what they return back to you, 1X photostated IC, 1X photostated birth cert and photostated passport copies IS NOT REQUIRED, so save some cents there XD. anyway, i got back, and waited my number again for the payment.

I was called and i went to the counter and asked the lady if i can pay it as soon as i pick it up, her reply "tak boleh, kena bayar hari ini juga, kalau tak kena batal" okay so i told her, if thats the case, just cancel the whole thing and i redo it by monday, it just takes a moment to redo the whole thing. She made some fuss behind shouting here and there asking bout the cancelation, what an embarassment...

So, she suggested that she will call the officer, and ask me to return to my seat, so a few moments later with a few morons staring...was called again, so the officer told me to come back on friday, i told him i cant make it, so i told him will monday be allright, he said okay, just as long you return to counter 9 with all the documents, which my original copies of my IC and birth cert. and pay at the same time.

So, its not so bad afterall, there's always hope for fuck ups. O_o; anyway, it most likely be done on wednesday..heheeh...

I went to the tailors yesterday wanted to pick up my costumes, parked my car at Sogo and took a train to masjid jamek, walked all the way to the tailors and i hope it did not closed, its still open which is a good thing, as i go in, the whole place looks like some surgical theater, fabrics all over the place, i said hi to the tailor, and i told her i'm gonna pick up the coat, just to find out still the same like last week, no buttons on and stuff, she told me, why not you take it to the buttons shop and get it buttoned.

I called yuu-chan bout the huntress costume coz i dont seem to see it anywhere (sorry to bug you yuu-chan *bows*) after the call, i think for a minuite, the tailor suggested to pick it up on friday, and since i am having presentation this friday......

So might as well i pick both up on saturday, less hassle. So i walked all the way back to masjid jamek, got the train back to Sogo, and while i was at sogo, i got my self some spagetti and some mushroom soup, got home, made my self a half assed Cabonara...

i'm gonna go back doing my more important assignments, before i go look at some classic cars on sale.

its been a very slow saturday, picked up Rei at Cyberjaya and left to sepang, thats like 10.30 Am, reached at 11.00 am just in time for the 1st qualifying.... apparently my make shift earplugs work....left at 12.30 coz cant stand the boredom of waiting...so going back there for the full race day.

reheating yesterday's pizza....and i really wish i had my big old oven again *sloths his way into the kitchen*

Today, i was at the Skoda showroom testing out the new 2006 Skoda Fabia Combi (there's 5 door hatch also there aswell) i went there after class about 2.00 PM, got my personal details filled and handled by a good friend of mine Sanjeev ( you'll be reading his name a couple of times in future posts.) got the key and took it for a "short" drive around Sri Hartamas and aswell a winding road heading to the Kiara golf course, Sanjeev, being the "poor" passenger which had to go thru all the torments of my mad driving and i am sure he is regretting that he handed me the key to me *evil laughter*, turning into corners as aggresive as possible, very forgiving car this, the car's conering balance is pretty neutral, and pretty stable for an estate, and the ABS (Anti locking Brake System) is effectively eficient but the only sight qualms i had with the car is that its lack of steering feel and a underpowered engine. what can you expect from a small sized estate, not too shabby tho. Another thing i cant wait to try is the new Proton Satria Neo...i hope it can be aranged >D

anyway with life. In relation with the paragraph on top, i got a job from the same people in Auto Praha, where i tested the Fabia. I got a job to design a body kit for the Fabia, so at the moment i have done atleast 4 designs, i'll post on or two later. Sanjeev's introduced me to his boss, Mr.Anthony and he told him that i will be designing the bodykit, after all these days i finnaly a direct criteria directly from Mr.Anthony, that he requires the body kit to have a more feminin feature, which i had a hunch on that. He also tells me that the body kit should cover the rocker panels due to the fact that the jack points being an eyesore on the side profile on the car which i have to agree wholeheartedly.so basically the due date is due this tuesday, so i'm looking forward to it.

Now, on to my cosplay life, this coming monday, i'm gonna collect two costumes from the tailor, the Melchior coat and my Ragnarok Online Huntress costume. i hope i get to keep my budget tight till monday, hope i dont spent anything much for tommorow's Super GT qualifying sesion at Sepang F1 curcuit. like making make shift ear plugs out of compressed tissue paper, which pretty did work well...especially with the notoriously loud RE Emimaya GT-300 RX-7. Back to topic. the Huntress costume is gonna see its first "action" in Cosfest, so i'm gonna give it all i got for the costume (hell,its my first cosplay outside Malaysia, so cut me some slack.)